In her podcast, Deep Dive with Vanessa Mdee, the 32- year old confessed how addicted she was to alcohol to an extent of not making firm decisions .
According to the celebrated Tanzanian artiste alcohol had overtaken her life and she was living like a robot.
She was not able to recognize herself anymore, because her life was just but the routine – anxiety, depression were the faces of her everyday life.
I became a person of horrible choices. I COULDN'T´t recognize myself anymore because I woke up every day trying to just get by and I don´t want to just get by anymore.
More than ever, I had moments of anxiety and moments of depression. I had moments of .
I don´t know what to do next¨ because this pressure is unnatural for a human being. And what comes after that?
Like many other addicts Vanessa said she hid her addiction so well, she was living a lie.
' I hid it so well but I was depressed and an alcoholic.
This is my truth and me letting you into this space because I don´t want to live a candy-coated life anymore.
I became a robot and I have no desire to be a robot or be unhappy anymore, because that´s what I was, unhappy.
Had moments of ¨we are enjoying this¨, I had moments of ¨this is fun¨, moments of ¨this is a beautiful day¨.
Mdee has called it quits in the world of music, stating the industry is demonic.
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