She is drop-dead gorgeous, a talented actor on screen and on stage but Brenda Wairimu masks her pain and fears so well.

Brenda opened about this in a very revealing social media post.

The Selina actress who played a villain to perfection opened up about how life in front of the camera gave her sanity and an outlet to escape from the pain in her life.

"YOU KNOW HOW THEY SAY ARTISTS PERFORM THEIR BEST WHEN THEY ARE AT THEIR WORST? THESE TROPHIES MEAN A LOT TO ME, ITS TAKEN ALMOST A DECADE TO GET HERE…AND it's TRUE WHEN MY PERSONAL LIFE WAS AT ITS WORST, MY ART THRIVED, IT WAS/IS MY ESCAPE.' BRENDA wrote on Instagram.

The actress then went further to explain the kind of pain she was undergoing at the time.

"I LOST MY DAD WHEN WE BEGAN THE SHOOTING OF KONA, MY MOM AFTER THAT. DURING DISCONNECT AND ESPECIALLY SUBIRA, MY RELATIONSHIP WAS TAKING BLOW AFTER BLOW, AND A LOT OF MISINFORMATION WAS GOING ROUND ABOUT IT."

Adding,

IT WAS A BLESSING TO BE ABLE TO BE SOMEONE ELSE, WHOSE LIFE WAS LAID DOWN AS WORDS ON A SCRIPT, WHOSE OUTCOME WAS CERTAIN," SHE ADDED

Recently, Brenda broke up with her bae, Ephy Saint. They did not publicise the break as much. Ephy hinted at a breakup when he posted,

“Ending something doesn’t have to be filled with anger, regret or negativity. We have experiences and memories that serve a purpose.”

Now, Brenda talks about the split saying,

I THINK WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY IS ARTISTS ARE HUMAN TOO, LIFE HAPPENS TO US, WE LOVE, WE MOURN, WE MAKE MISTAKES, AND WE DO IT ALL IN FRONT OF A MILLION AND ONE EYES. THIS IS VERY CLICHE TO SAY, I KNOW. BUT THANK YOU TO YOU ALL, AND FOR ART AND FILM FOR ALWAYS BEING MY ESCAPE, MY ALTERNATE REALITY."