Some celebs have opened up on battling suicidal thoughts. Some of them shared how they overcame and survived the situation that almost ruined them.
1. Oliver Mathenge
Oliver who is a Digital Editor – Radio Africa Group, has not had it easy. He has not only battled alcoholism but has also battled suicidal attempts not once but twice.
In a post titled “Once Upon A Bottle” Oliver wrote
“For two years I struggled with the urge to be high and since I do not do any drugs alcohol was a quick solution.
I had given up on life in a manner that pushed me to escape reality and seek to avoid everyday challenges.
I could not survive a day without alcohol unless I was too hangovered to get out of bed.
In between the day in the office I would go out to have a few shots of whatever drink I thought my system needed.
Some Fridays drinking would start as early as midday and would sometimes go on until Sunday. (Yes I would spend two days in a bar like that’s all about life). I was a slave,” he wrote in part.
Digital boss revealed how he messed up family and social relationships and sunk into deep debt.
“I was breaking down, I messed up family and social relationships.
I was messing up my job, until GOD decided I needed greater responsibilities to keep me in check.
I suffered uncontrollable meltdowns, I sunk into debt – as in hundreds of thousands as I sought to finance a champagne life on beer money.”
Oliver at one point in his life tried twice to take his own life and disclosed that he lost many friends as a result of his horrible habit.
“I tried to take my life twice, again, GOD had to show me there’s still a lot to do on earth.
I lost friends because I could not be there for them unless there was alcohol involved.
I also had friends who were cheering me on as I wasted my life, which was seemingly coming to a halt, alcohol took a lot from me .
It took control of me.”
2. Grace Ekirapa
The beautiful TV host recently opened up on how she tried committing suicide not once but twice.
In candid video posts on her Instagram Grace says:
“I took 18 pills and given the fact that I was unwell at the time I was also on antibiotics. I decided to swallow them all and just end my life.
In form three I tried again, so I took 35 pills given that the 18 I had taken the previous time did not kill me I though to my self that 35 would do the job.
People did not understand why a 17 year old like me would want to commit suicide.
What prompted that decision was all the negative energy surrounding me.
I had always been a sickly child and people at some point thought that I was faking my illness to stay away from school, even my own parents did not believe me.”
In a past interview on Radio Jambo, Mejja also opened up on how he almost committed suicide after his now ex-wife dumped him through a text.
“We had not disagreed actually we were so happy. That day.
I was in Thika and I got her message asking me If I had arrived well, I told her, yes and the next thing she told me was ‘Move on with your life’.
The next time I called her, she neither received nor returned my calls.”
On receiving the message, Mejja thought it was a prank by his wife only to go home and find her missing.
That broke him given that he was longing to start a family and he was not even sure of why she had left in the first place.
“As a man, sharing that with my friends, was the hardest thing.
It consumed me inside for so long but at last I decided to open up.
I could not imagine the mother of my child loving another man.”
“Committing suicide was one of the thought that came in my mind.
Especially because I felt like there was something wrong.
The best thing was that I had a friend who would come to my house. We would chat and slowly all the suicidal thoughts faded away and I got better.”
4. Kamene Goro
Kiss FM breakfast presenter Kamene Goro has in an interview with True Love magazine, September edition opened up about her past suicide attempt.
The sassy damsel revealed that she battled depression after her marriage of one year failed.
TOWARDS THE END OF MY MARRIAGE I WAS DEPRESSED.
I POPPED ABOUT 70 SLEEPING PILLS TO END IT ALL.
BUT JUST WHEN I STARTED TO FEEL WOOZY, I HEARD A STILL VOICE ASKING, DO YOU NOT TRUST ME HANDLE THIS FOR YOU.
THANKFULLY THERE WAS AN AAR A FEW DOORS FROM WHERE I LIVED. I DROVE MYSELF THERE AND GOT MY STOMACH PUMPED.
5. Mr Seed
In his song, ‘Simama’ Mr Seed sang about the tribulations he went through that led to him harbouring suicidal thoughts.
Mr Seed said that he was frustrated because nothing was working out for him.
I was frustrated with life a few years back. I lost hope with everything because nothing was working out for me. I had so many problems.
So many mistakes with life and it reached a point where I felt, life to me, was useless.
I used to stay indoors even for a week without any human interaction.
I was living in Ruaka at the time, I tried to commit suicide but I just couldn’t do it so I started praying.
I made a habit of going to Karura Forest everyday by foot just to pray.
The lyrics below from his song, best illustrate what he felt at the time.
I got into so much trouble when the world pushed me into a corner and I felt like suicide was the only option I had.
The God of Abraham however came to me and assured me that he was with me.
Even if people fail me I will not be worried if God is with me.