• For me, I did not feel like waking up, I did not want to talk to people. When I came out of the depression, the first time I laughed I was surprised.

Rachel Shebesh
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Former Nairobi Woman Representative Rachael Shebesh has opened up on her struggle with depression. 

Shebesh who is a CAS in the Ministry of Ministry of Public Service and Gender was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder in her early twenties and is under treatment for the same. 

In an interview on Radio Jambo, Shebesh said that she fell into depression years ago and it took a toll on her. 

"I went into a depression for 1 and a half years, I decided not to joke with depression again. For me, I did not feel like waking up, I did not want to talk to people. When I came out of the depression, the first time I laughed I was surprised.

I had not laughed for two years. I was shocked when I laughed for the first time after my depression treatment. I used to see people laughing and I would ask myself how they are doing it," Shebesh narrated. 

She said that tackling the disorder is a journey that needs patience and support from close family members. 

"By the time you accept to go and see a psychiatrist for him to diagnose you and accepting that you are bipolar is a process. It may even take one year. 

The day I decided to become serious about my bipolar issue is when I sank into depression. The depression in Bi-bolar can be triggered with guilt, fear, anything touching on my family."

At some point, the disorder almost drove her to commit suicide.