Marriage is meant to last for better for worse but for Laurine Okwach even her tolerance during the worst times could not save her life.

Laurine who was recently shot dead by her ex-MCA husband, Richard Muchesia expressed her pain and anguish in her very cryptic posts in her social media.

She had in the past shared cryptic messages on her social media platform that has left us with questions.

The call to follow christ is a call to die- be dead to self, dead to fornication, dead to stealing, dead to evil passions.

In one post on her social media, Laurine asks, in what looks like a lot of inner anguish.

Can sm1 tel mi wat 2 do? i'm btn a rock n wall? It hurts bad i feel like crying bt wat will ma kids do if i shed a tear! whY...

In another post, Laurine shares that she was ready to die for Christ and also stay away from sin.

The call to follow christ is a call to die - be dead to self, dead to fornication, dead to stealing, dead to evil passions.

In another, she pens how the race is not for the weak.

The race is not 2 da swift or da battle 2 da strong, nor does food kam 2 da wise or wealth 2 da briliant or favour 2 da learned; time and chance happen 2 dem ol. Wait upon da lord.

In a different post, Laurine talks about how it hurts asking why it had to be that way. It is not clear what caused her such grief.

This really hurts....its sad. Why?