'I've survived 3 suicide attempts,' Depressed lady shares sad story

Piece by: Caren Nyota
Lifestyle

Cases of depression have been on the rise of late. There are so many depressed people suffering in silence and only a few are helped, whereas a large number end up committing suicide,

A Kenyan woman identified as Lizzy Otieno, recently took to Facebook to narrate how she survived three suicide attempts.

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Otieno, revealed that she was deeply depressed that she would even cut her body with a razor blade. She disclosed that she is suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder.

Borderline Personality Disorder is a mental illness marked by an ongoing pattern of varying moods, self-image, and behavior. These symptoms often result in impulsive actions and problems in relationships.

The lady's post went viral, leaving many in shock. Her post read:

The most important thing I did this year was survive. I stopped cutting and burning my body. I learnt to love myself. I learnt to eat and stop starving myself. I learnt to forgive those who traumatised me since my childhood.. And for that alone, I am very proud of myself. I'ts not easy.

I have Borderline Personality Disorder

(Kindly Google it and read about it)

and I am a three-time suicide attempt survivor.

God didn't give me another chance because I needed it but because certain people in this world, in my society and my community need me.

I am not ashamed of anything because my mental disorder is not who I am but rather a part of me that can be managed. I am beautiful, talented, creative, smart, unique.

I am a very very strong woman because there's nothing in this world more terrifying than battling your own mind on your own every single day when the voices in your head are against you.

I know there are many people like me out there suffering in silence. So guys please let's create awareness and end the stigma. Recovery is worth it.

She accompanied the above post with the pics below;

Barely 24 hours ago, Lizzy has shared a post about battling Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Attention Deficit Disorder without hyperactivity (ADD). She says its exhausting.

Honestly, it is exhausting. Having BPD and ADD at the same time is exhausting, and trying to help someone who is so severely instable is exhausting for therapists, family, and friends.

I don't believe in hiding mental health challenges. If others don't know, how can they learn to understand you? Yes, it will scare some away, but the ones who stay are all the more precious.

I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Attention Deficit Disorder without hyperactivity (ADD) years back. I'm not insane, just broken.

ADD is easier to manage but BPD is something else. It is exhausting to the sufferer, and it is exhausting to anyone who relates to that person. Sadly, including therapists. So, I understand why people and many therapists hate working with BPD. I can't blame them. It is just plain exhausting.

If you ever want to know what it feels like to have ADD, imagine a browser with 2,895 tabs open ALL THE TIME. My mind always like "Oh right, I need to clean the dishes but let me clean that window first, Oh! I want to google how to bake banana cake, I should just mop this floor now, I want to call Becky back, let me check what's new on Pinterest" Great! I've got nothing done today and family and friends are going to judge me 'lazy'. Because they don't understand that Attention deficit disorder (ADD) is a neurological disorder that causes difficulty in focusing on one thing, keeping up with assignments, following detailed instructions, completing tasks, making careless mistakes because I have difficulty sustaining attention and organizing tasks and activities, easily distracted by external stimuli, and often lose things and completely forget things, I may leave projects unfinished and appear not to listen when you speak.

It's exhausting. I'm exhausted, 24/7.

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