Diana Marua and her husband Bahati have been grabbing headlines of late for all the wrong reasons.
Recently, they were exposed of using security forces to evict Mr Seed’s wife from an event yet she was heavily pregnant.
This left the couple trend for days, with many calling them out, claiming they were ‘hypocrites’.
Well, Diana Marua has confessed that in the past, she made awful decisions, which took her quite a while to come to terms with it.
“To the girl, I was then, I Forgive You!”
We so easily forgive others or ask others for forgiveness, but we forget to forgive ourselves. Instead, we hold on to the guilt and shame; allowing those moments to playback until they fester into insecurities. Perhaps it’s just my story… well, let me speak for myself. I have made awful decisions and some took me years to come to terms with.
She added that these decisions ‘ruined’ her life and she lowered her standards and accepted anything;
I allowed those decisions to tell me who I was, defining my self-worth. In doing so, I lowered my standards and accepted anything, which created insecurities that were never mine to possess. As time passed, I began to grow through life. I thought because I had accepted everything for what it was, that I had healed. Until one night God got me ALL the way together.
She went ahead to talk about how she broke down, praying to God, asking for forgiveness. The mother of one urged her followers to learn how to forgive.
‘As I was having my own quiet time, I began to reflect on my life, the far I’ve come, all the things I’ve gone through. As I was reflecting through, I began to breakdown and cry…. more like screamed, I even got breathless. No one could hear me but God. Then in that Still voice, I heard LET IT GO! The disappointments and the guilt.’
I had prayed and asked God for forgiveness plenty of times in the past, but God was telling me I didn’t Truly believe I was Forgiven. I had not forgiven myself.
I started to meditate on all of my recent blessings and I came to the realization that if God, the creator of all things can forgive me, surely, the least I can do is to also forgive myself. So I did, I let go and I didn’t look back, Ever! God had to get me by myself so I could deal with myself. Sometimes, old things just can’t go where you’re going. If your story is somewhat like mine, I’m here to tell you, Forgive the old you so you can walk boldly into the woman God created you to be.