02 February 2024

The singer says her heart feels tender but has encouraged herself that the month will be full of grace and joy

Gospel minister Kambua lost her son Malachi in February. The singer says her heart feels tender but has encouraged herself that the month will be full of grace and joy.

"Happy new month beloved 🦋. This is Malachi month for me. My heart feels very tender…but I also sense the tangible grace of God snuffing the pain out. It will be a GREAT month with an abundance of joy.I pray for you. I speak healing to every broken place…restoration…redemption! In Jesus name."

In January, Kambua revealed to her fans that she sometimes experiences grief triggers.

"Today has been a hard day, can you tell? 😅 I’m told that my eyes betray me…idk, sometimes I get grief triggers that I don’t anticipate and it feels like I’m free-falling, yet finding comfort in knowing that God will always catch me.

I will forever live with the fact that I carried a baby that I never got to raise. Oh, but I loved him. I prayed for him. I sang for him. He knew how much his mama wanted him and I imagine he knew how much my heart broke when his stopped."

She went on to reveal what had triggered her at the time;

"I saw a dad on TikTok (Baba Dylan) kissing his boy’s casket as it was lowered to the ground and this had me undone."

"It feels so unnatural to bury a child- it’s not the “proper” order of things, and yet, I trust the plan of God. I trust his sovereignty even when my human mind cannot wrap itself around death, its purpose, and its inevitability. Today my heart aches; but not only for myself."

Kambua has two more kids; Nate and Nathelie.