• Monny Muthoni took her life after a painful heartbreak and rejection that she could not process, she penned all this on her last Facebook posts.
The late Monny Muthoni's fragile mental state was attributed to a broken heart and loneliness, according to close friends.
Before she took her life she warned her followers that a lot will be said about her.
"Many [things] will b said about me. I know u will b amazed and wonder whether it's the Monny you know but b calm God is goin to do wonders in my lyf ad it will b their tym to say really she's blessed."
Adding, "I am always a poor listener to naughty stories given by my enemies...God first."
Monny took her life on May 12 at 9:35 pm, she posted two alarming messages that read.
"Dear World, I am leaving because I am bored, I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool. I tried. No more pains. Wake no more. Nobody owns [knows]"
Adding, "I am going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call time eternity...I"
The last message is left hanging and unfinished, we will never know what she wanted to say.
Monny's troubles started when she announced her engagement on social media on September 12, 2016. She was just 18 years old.
But it seems the engagement and the relationship ended a few months back and Monny posted cryptic messages about rejection and heartbreak.
Monny wrote, "To be rejected by someone doesn't mean you should also reject yourself or you should think of yourself as a lesser person...it doesn't mean that nobody will ever love you anymore."
She noted, "Remember that only ONE person has rejected you at the moment ad it only hurt because to you that person's opinion symbolized the opinion of the whole world to you....nevaaaa mind."
The former student of Ollessos Technical Training Institute also rationalised the break up adding, "Neva feel as if the world is coming to an end wen someone decides to walk away from ur lyf.....LET THEM GO."
Read Monny's long letter about moving on and the pain of a broken relationship.
"Trying to force someone to lov you is lyk tryin to teach a pig how to appreciate beauty and cleanliness. Don't force them, let them love u ad if they cant...LET THEM GO. You are too precious to beg for love.
A person wu truly loves you will respect you ad not treat you like trash...if they treat you like trash...LET THEM GO...Don't waste tyme tryn to convince or begging anyone to love you.
Someone else out there is dying ad sinking deeply in love wid u, but you r too damn busy chasing broken dreams.....LET THEM GO.
Don't b sad if someone prefers another over you.... it is always difficult to convince a monkey that strawberries are sweeter than bananas...LET THEM GO..
There are people wu will neva love you no matter how much u love them ad in facts that's okay.....Their rejection of you doesn't mean there is something wrong wid u...It simply means they are not meant for u.
Don't force a circle shape into a triangle shape.....LET THeM GO........IF SOMETHING IS NOT MEANT IT WIL NEVA B......THAT'S THE SECRET TO A HAPPY LIFE."
Counselors, medics, and psychologists advise that you can always reach out for help when experiencing any mental health issues. Call Kenya Red Cross toll-free hotline, 1199 for support.