Gospel singer Kambua was childless for seven years after she got married to her husband Jackson Mathu.
The couple had their wedding in 2012. Throughout her waiting journey, Kambua says she has learnt to be patient and to only trust in God.
She faced a lot of stigmatisation as some people could not understand her journey.
While some thought she was willingly living without a child, Kambua in a recent YouTube interview ‘Waiting Womb Trust’ she says she was broken by how the society was judgemental to her.
Even after she welcomed her now one-year-old son Nate, Kambua says she is still struggling to heal.
For that reason, she says she has sought to keep her son away from social media.
She says that she even decided to stay away from some spaces as she still feels she doesn’t deserve to address them.
“I had been labelled a barren woman. I would wake up to a tweet like, ‘Utazaa lini’ I would post a photo and people’s comments would make me feel I am not worthy,” she said.
“I wish we would be more sensitive with one another. I pulled away from a group I really loved because they always talked about children.”
“I am also very protective of my son because of what I went through and I want him to grow and decide, I want an Instagram page.
“I felt let me just raise my son away from that glare away from people who would say whatever they wanted anytime. I am still on a journey to healing.
The mother of one thanked her husband for shielding her from some things that were said about them.
“My husband always told me, Kambua you are enough for me even if you don’t get children and it settled in my mind and my spirit.
I appreciate my mother in love because when people were saying all sought of things, relatives friends, not even once did she ever ask when I was going to have kids. I remember at the dinner table her and dad would pray and thank God for saying one day we will have grandchildren in this table but never did she put that pressure on me. That was a safe space for me,” she said.